Two Months

I’ve now been here a little over two months, which is absolutely incredible to think about.  It feels like both an incredibly long and incredibly short time, though when I think back to my life in the beginning of October, I can’t believe how much I’ve changed. I’ve already adjusted to so much and although I’ve got a ways to go, I’ve come a long way. As well, I can’t believe all of the things I’ve seen and the once in the lifetime experience I’ve had.

I will however, admit that the first two months, especially the first, have been very difficult, and I’m happy about that. I think my life for a long time was too easy. I graduated high school brimming with confidence because I had been very successful doing what I was good at. Although I was certainly challenging myself, expanding and working hard, I didn’t have to struggle and fall to do the very basics of something. Suddenly, I was in Spain and terribly confused and discouraged, and for a while, I wasn’t sure if I would learn the language and understand what was going on. I simply had to have faith in myself and in the people who believed in me.

Now I’m here; I’m not to understanding, but I’m sure getting there. I now know that I’ll understand everything at some point so long as I persevere. However, it’s not that I’ll be focused on learning then pop my head out one day and say, “I’m ready.” It’s that I’m already doing it now and I just need to get better and furthermore, I’ll be enjoying the journey while I get there. I know I’ll get there, which is all I need.

I suppose to sum it up, sometimes it’s good to get lost in a dark part of the woods and not think that you might get out because you’ve gotten so used to the meadow. When you do get out, you feel better and the dark part of the woods isn’t so scary.

Anyways, to say the least, I’ve been angsting about the language for far too long now and I’m probably on a soap box now, but in either case, I know I’ll be fine. Also, as a quick update, for those who don’t know, I went to Ordessa national park a little while back and it was gorgeous. I had my first band concert which went incredibly well and the Rotarians who went absolutely loved it, and next week, I’ll be going through the roman historical sites with my rotary counselor and the other rotary students. I also want to start looking into dance in these next couple weeks.